THE TENDENCY OF DEVELOPING ANXIETY DISORDER.
uhm. hi. again. it's been months since I last blogged about my feelings, and stuff. I have my anxiety issues attacking me gain. you know how much I get depress because of this. right now, I feel like I'm about to be left behind. I don't want to be left behind. If there are things I learned about tonight, that is about me, having a fear of being left behind. and no, I'm not afraid of being alone. being alone, and being left behind are totally different story, well, in my book. anyway, the reason of this anxiety issue started on my 3rd year in College. yey. I haven't blogged anything about 3rd year life right? so... here it goes.3rd year of College, is pretty much the busiest year. This is also the start of our majoring so... fuck. I've been trying to balance my Anime life, and Studies. and. right now, I don't fucking know anymore. I need to catch up with my grades, and what's stressing me more out is that, my friend/s doesn't need to catch up that much. and... it's just fucking sad, for me, of course. and that is also why I feel like I'm being left behind. and I hate it. a lot.
Anxiety is caused by the following.
- Friends. you know the deal.
- uhm. homesick? well, fuck it. whatever.
- slow internet connection. I mean, I don't have much to do if the internet connection is slow. how am I supposed to watch Anime? aaand, that's why I always end up worrying a lot. fuck. again.
I just hope letting this out will help me. C'mon. we all have this kind of phase in life.
"Life is a bitch, so learn how to fuck it." (too bad, I'm still a virgin. I'm innocent. how to fuck Life, please. but, if I fuck Life, wouldn't that be like having a fucked up Life, which is not good, and will stress me out more, and it might probably lead me to having anxiety disorder. oh, please, no. I don't wanna have panic attacks.)
THE TENDENCIES OF HAVING ANXIETY DISORDER.
uhm. hi. again. it's been months since I last blogged about my feelings, and stuff. I have my anxiety issues attacking me gain. you know how much I get depress because of this. right now, I feel like I'm about to be left behind. I don't want to be left behind. If there are things I learned about tonight, that is about me, having a fear of being left behind. and no, I'm not afraid of being alone. being alone, and being left behind are totally different story, well, in my book. anyway, the reason of this anxiety issue started on my 3rd year in College. yey. I haven't blogged anything about 3rd year life right? so... here it goes.3rd year of College, is pretty much the busiest year. This is also the start of our majoring so... fuck. I've been trying to balance my Anime life, and Studies. and. right now, I don't fucking know anymore. I need to catch up with my grades, and what's stressing me more out is that, my friend/s doesn't need to catch up that much. and... it's just fucking sad, for me, of course. and that is also why I feel like I'm being left behind. and I hate it. a lot.
Anxiety is caused by the following.
- Friends. you know the deal.
- uhm. homesick? well, fuck it. whatever.
- slow internet connection. I mean, I don't have much to do if the internet connection is slow. how am I supposed to watch Anime? aaand, that's why I always end up worrying a lot. fuck. again.
I just hope letting this out will help me. C'mon. we all have this kind of phase in life.
"Life is a bitch, so learn how to fuck it." (too bad, I'm still a virgin. I'm innocent. how to fuck Life, please. but, if I fuck Life, wouldn't that be like having a fucked up Life, which is not good, and will stress me out more, and it might probably lead me to having anxiety disorder. oh, please, no. I don't wanna have panic attacks.)
Not so ordinary
It seems like I love typing because it feels like I'm a hacker like Haruma in Bloody Monday. (I'm that weird.)o I just love watching Movies.
o new hairstyle here I come
o I'm so weird. I fell in love with Ryo-chan again just because I saw a photo of him, skateboarding.
checklist
-must finish Bloody Monday 1 and 2.
-finish my drabbles and one-shots
-update my fanfic
-make icons, wallpapers and banners
-improve my creativity. yea, I LACK TOO MUCH CREATIVITY
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you know how much I want to kill boredom
I decided to make drabbles and one-shots of YamaChii, YamaJima and InooBu moments when school starts.Yea, I'm that weird, people this days wants to finish their fictions before school starts but I'm in the opposite way.
Probably because I'm always bored and my mind works fast when it's school days, I dunno why.
I'm actually starting it, I have drafts of my YamaChii one-shots and I'm trying to make drabbles too.
I want to have a cellphone right now, not because of texting, it's because I want to take pictures and record a fancover of JPop songs. I'm just too dumb that my cellphone was snatched by whoever-shit-he-or-she-is.
The moment I'll have a new cellphone, I promise myself to cover Ultra Music Power.
tee-hihi, I feel like my voice is good whenever I'm singing Chinen's part in any song. wahahaha! yea, I'm that stupid, oh well.
Anyways, I'm looking forward for school to start so I can publish my one-shots and drabbles.
For now, I'll make myself busy updating my ongoing YamaChii fanfic entitled More Than Friends.
If you want to read it, please go to my Livejournal. ^__^
xo, Max
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I'm in my own sanity again.
okay, so my system isn't malfunctioning much lately and I'm fine with that,(I still like Yuma and I know it's strange. o.o)
random stuffs
o why does Kei Inoo and Takaki looks so perv-ish
o why am I attracted to pervish-looking cute guys like them?
o I'm even attracted to a pig like Ryosuke Yamada.
o my fangirl-ing this messed me up. lol
o I want to go to Japan, search for my piggy babeh
School is near again and you know how much I hate school, okay I only like the 1st week part then boom, I hate school again.
Anyways, I'm in the pilot section again,
I'm happy because Diana B and Andrea who's not in the pilot section last year got into the pilot class
I'm sad because Geraldine didn't make it to the pilot class
And yea, I'm not stressed anymore. weee.
xo, Max
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My system started malfunctioning. o.o
Last week up to now is so epic.Random stuffs kept on bugging me out, I can't even update my fanfic even though I have free time.
I guess Tumblr is the reason I became like this. You know, craving for followers and stuffs.
Anyways, I'm quite calm now. >.<
I became a pessimist, but I'm trying to look on the bright side now. ^.^
these are signs that my system is malfunctioning
o I'm saving Takaki, Inoo, Kamenashi and even Hikaru's photos instead of Ryo-chan.
o I liked Yuma now that I've watch Hidarime Tantei Eye. That's strange
o I'm having this type of shiz around my body whenever I'm watching something related to Ryo-chan
o I promised myself that Imma watch Bloody Monday after the Gokusen Marathon but I end up watching Hidarime Tantei Eye
o I really wanna watch Bloody Monday and then watch Bloody Monday 2 because Sato Takeru is there.
o I got sick of typing (why am I typing right now?)
so yea, I guess I'm a weirdo now. XD
xo, Max
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whatever Korean. yea
Okay, I'm not much of a KPop fan.and for me, JPop is way better than KPop
I accept if you disagree.
anyways, I'll be posting some Korean Artist that I like. >.<
1. (bi) Rain/Jung Ji Hoon
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2. Jang Geun Suk
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Labels: Korean craps, KPop
Favorite Japanese Band. ^.^
either, JPop band or JRock band, still its a JBand so yea.
Imma post my favorites now. >.<
1. KAT-TUN
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2. Hey! Say! JUMP
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Favorite Japanese Artist. ^.^
vnah, I'm just bored. So my friend, Yumi, gave me the idea of posting this kind of stuff.
I saw her tumblr, and she posted fave people, so yea.
instead of favorite people, I changed it to Japanese Artist. ^.^
so let's start, of course, with my ICHIBAN
1. RYOSUKE YAMADA (Hey! Say! JUMP)
I call him Ryo-chan or sometimes "taba" when I feel like it
--taba=a filipino word for "fat"
I call him Ryo-chan or sometimes "taba" when I feel like it
--taba=a filipino word for "fat"
2. Akanishi Jin/Bakanishi/Daddy Jin (KAT-TUN)
no matter what, he will always be my Bakanishi.
3. Kei Inoo (Hey! Say! JUMP)
(yes I'm not that addicted to him but I oh-so love him and his
"mmmda" moment in Ultra Music Power PV)
4. Kamenashi Kazuya (KAT-TUN)
if it wasn't because of Yamato Nadeshiko,
I wouldn't fall in love with him.
5. Chinen Yuri (Hey! Say! JUMP)
this kawaii little boy who had this girl-ish voice is
the best match for Ryo-chan. ^.^
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addicted to BAKANISHI. o'gawd. ^.^
so uh, obviously, I get addicted to random stuffs so easily.
I mean, last time, I was addicted to Kamenashi Kazuya because of YamaNade.
He's so effin cute there. wth. especially when he cut of his hair at episode I-don't-know-what
I even fought with my friend that Kame is better than "that Jin"
and the time I was watching Gokusen 2, I suddenly got addicted to Akanishi Jin.
Oh, well, I became addicted to AKAME pairing 1st because Kame is there.
Then, I was like, "oh my gawd, Jin is so cute"
so yea, boom.
I'm in love with Bakanishi. ^.^
Here are some Bakanishi pics that I have.
More BAKANISHI PICS!!
I fell with YamaChii again
YamaChii
YAMAda Ryosuke <3 CHInen Yuri
So, I've been addicted in AKAME loveteam and other Pairings but I felt like I miss YamaChii pairing so much so I've searched some of their pics. and I saw this. 
aww. Isn't that KAWAII ne??
so yea, I'm getting addicted to YamaChii again. ^.^
haha. my Ichiban is Ryo-chan but I'll entrust him to Chii-san. I'm happy for them! ^.^
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Name: Max
heyitsmaxsin has been my official blog since 2010. I also own chibi-chubby-bunny @ blogspot, ihaveyourpanties @ tumblr, and japanese-satisfaction @ tumblr.
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